My baby girl
You sent my life into a whirl.
Waiting two weeks late
Instead of your due date.
Your eyes of Blue
A beautiful hue.
Bright and wide
Allowing the world to see inside.
Your laugh ends my sadness.
And fills my world with gladness.
You innocence shows
The love I have for you, only God knows.
Time will come one day
When I’ll have to give you away.
I’m sure I’ll cry,
And ask you why.
I know you’ll have to move on
But I’ll miss you when your gone.
I’ll forget that day will soon be
And hug you close and my love you’ll see.
For now my angel one
I’ll watch each step you’ve done.
Growing slowly, but so fast.
I’ll pray that forever one hug could last.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Nicholas (my little man)
My little man
I’m your biggest fan.
My heart soars with joy
You are MY little boy!
The day you were born
I was torn.
I was scared for you.
Your little face was a little blue.
You were early to enter this world.
Your neck wrapped in the cord.
When I heard your cry
My eyes I couldn’t dry.
Now your eight
And making me feel great.
You shine so bright
Such a wonderful sight.
One day you’ll become a man.
So tall and tan.
You’ll have a wife,
And live a wonderful life.
I’m your biggest fan.
My heart soars with joy
You are MY little boy!
The day you were born
I was torn.
I was scared for you.
Your little face was a little blue.
You were early to enter this world.
Your neck wrapped in the cord.
When I heard your cry
My eyes I couldn’t dry.
Now your eight
And making me feel great.
You shine so bright
Such a wonderful sight.
One day you’ll become a man.
So tall and tan.
You’ll have a wife,
And live a wonderful life.
Nicholas (my little man)
My little man
I’m your biggest fan.
My heart soars with joy
You are MY little boy!
The day you were born
I was torn.
I was scared for you.
Your little face was a little blue.
You were early to enter this world.
Your neck wrapped in the cord.
When I heard your cry
My eyes I couldn’t dry.
Now your eight
And making me feel great.
You shine so bright
Such a wonderful sight.
One day you’ll become a man.
So tall and tan.
You’ll have a wife,
And live a wonderful life.
I’m your biggest fan.
My heart soars with joy
You are MY little boy!
The day you were born
I was torn.
I was scared for you.
Your little face was a little blue.
You were early to enter this world.
Your neck wrapped in the cord.
When I heard your cry
My eyes I couldn’t dry.
Now your eight
And making me feel great.
You shine so bright
Such a wonderful sight.
One day you’ll become a man.
So tall and tan.
You’ll have a wife,
And live a wonderful life.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Poems wrote on Sunday
Today as always I felt so alone.
Had hoped to hear your voices tone.
A touch on my skin.
Yet, I know, I’ll see you again.
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Daily my heart feels more at ease.
With the mornings breeze.
I wouldn’t try to bring you back
To the body that became a shack.
You temple now is of pure gold.
Your children lost there to hold.
I know your watching us below,
And smiling down, this I know.
A smile so bright and pure.
You found you final cure.
To all the pain you felt down here.
No more to bare a single tear.
Rest easy tonight God’s brave solider
For tonight my heart is a little bolder.
I’ll face the battle as you did.
And face this day with the heart of a kid!
We walk alone,
Living freely in our own zone.
Hand in hand.
Leaving footprints in the sand.
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Friends and family appear.
I know something good is very near.
As you kneel down at my side
I feel the tears and start to cry.
I know what’s coming,
My heart is drumming.
My knees get weak
I can’t even speak.
The clouds slide apart
Letting the sun shine on my hear.
Stepping back, I can see
The crowd growing beneath the tree.
The breeze starts blowing
The beauty of knowing
I’ll soon be part of your life
And proudly stand as your wife.
The earth starts shaking,
The vision is breaking.
This can’t be what it does seem.
I can’t be waking from this dream.
I wake to find you by my side.
My dream didn’t leave me far behind.
Your hugging me close and tight.
This point I know I’ve found “Mr. Right”
Had hoped to hear your voices tone.
A touch on my skin.
Yet, I know, I’ll see you again.
... See More
Daily my heart feels more at ease.
With the mornings breeze.
I wouldn’t try to bring you back
To the body that became a shack.
You temple now is of pure gold.
Your children lost there to hold.
I know your watching us below,
And smiling down, this I know.
A smile so bright and pure.
You found you final cure.
To all the pain you felt down here.
No more to bare a single tear.
Rest easy tonight God’s brave solider
For tonight my heart is a little bolder.
I’ll face the battle as you did.
And face this day with the heart of a kid!
We walk alone,
Living freely in our own zone.
Hand in hand.
Leaving footprints in the sand.
... See More
Friends and family appear.
I know something good is very near.
As you kneel down at my side
I feel the tears and start to cry.
I know what’s coming,
My heart is drumming.
My knees get weak
I can’t even speak.
The clouds slide apart
Letting the sun shine on my hear.
Stepping back, I can see
The crowd growing beneath the tree.
The breeze starts blowing
The beauty of knowing
I’ll soon be part of your life
And proudly stand as your wife.
The earth starts shaking,
The vision is breaking.
This can’t be what it does seem.
I can’t be waking from this dream.
I wake to find you by my side.
My dream didn’t leave me far behind.
Your hugging me close and tight.
This point I know I’ve found “Mr. Right”
Tabitha's Poem(just threw together, hope it makes sense)
This is for my oldest daughter. I'll be posting one for the other two hopefully tomorrow!
The day you were born
My heart was torn.
The tears I shed
Were fear and dread.
The day you spoke
The tears caused me to choke.
“Mama” the sweetest thing
I could almost sing.
The day you walked
The doors were locked.
I dreaded that day
For the rest of the time I had to pray.
The day you started school.
You thought you were so cool.
I cried like a baby,
And worried about you all day.
One day soon you will leave the nest
I’ll never get any rest.
This world is tough
Did I teach you enough?
Did I show you how to love
And to pray to God above?
Did I teach you to cook,
Or to read your own child a book.
The worries I have for you
Just shows my love is true.
God gave me you first.
Because he knew in me you would trust.
When I’m gone will you know
That I did everything to show.
That I would love you always
And in many different ways!
The day you were born
My heart was torn.
The tears I shed
Were fear and dread.
The day you spoke
The tears caused me to choke.
“Mama” the sweetest thing
I could almost sing.
The day you walked
The doors were locked.
I dreaded that day
For the rest of the time I had to pray.
The day you started school.
You thought you were so cool.
I cried like a baby,
And worried about you all day.
One day soon you will leave the nest
I’ll never get any rest.
This world is tough
Did I teach you enough?
Did I show you how to love
And to pray to God above?
Did I teach you to cook,
Or to read your own child a book.
The worries I have for you
Just shows my love is true.
God gave me you first.
Because he knew in me you would trust.
When I’m gone will you know
That I did everything to show.
That I would love you always
And in many different ways!
Friday, June 4, 2010
Just another poem..
One sunny summer day
I watched the children play
Thinking back to all the times
to the days I play and make up rhymes.
When there were no thoughts
No crimes no plots
No worries of dying
And falls were the reason for crying.
To a time when love was real.
And couples expressed how the feel.
Grandparents were still with us.
And scoldings when we would cuss.
A time when family was strong.
Before worries came along.
When promises made
Were promises kept.
When children could play
And would run all day.
Falls, scrapes and bruised up knees.
When everyone used "Thanks" and Please"
A time when God came first.
When lemonade cured all thirst.
A time when simple was the life.
When husbands were honest with their wife.
Times like that are so far gone.
Along with the waking up at Dawn.
A time when life was grand.
Time was spend lending a hand.
I miss those days
and those ways.
From back before my time
I watched the children play
Thinking back to all the times
to the days I play and make up rhymes.
When there were no thoughts
No crimes no plots
No worries of dying
And falls were the reason for crying.
To a time when love was real.
And couples expressed how the feel.
Grandparents were still with us.
And scoldings when we would cuss.
A time when family was strong.
Before worries came along.
When promises made
Were promises kept.
When children could play
And would run all day.
Falls, scrapes and bruised up knees.
When everyone used "Thanks" and Please"
A time when God came first.
When lemonade cured all thirst.
A time when simple was the life.
When husbands were honest with their wife.
Times like that are so far gone.
Along with the waking up at Dawn.
A time when life was grand.
Time was spend lending a hand.
I miss those days
and those ways.
From back before my time
Just another poem..
When I need you, your never there
Never let me know you care.
I walk alone through the day,
I know you see me feeling this way.
When things are right
Your always in site.
Holding my hand
As we walk through the sand
When the storm rages
And life casts it’s stages
I look for you
Only your arms will do
All the searches comes up empty
All the sand becomes so shifty.
Wanting you to come save me
But where could you be.
Needing your touch
The lack of you is to much
Come back to me
Save me
Love me
Never let me know you care.
I walk alone through the day,
I know you see me feeling this way.
When things are right
Your always in site.
Holding my hand
As we walk through the sand
When the storm rages
And life casts it’s stages
I look for you
Only your arms will do
All the searches comes up empty
All the sand becomes so shifty.
Wanting you to come save me
But where could you be.
Needing your touch
The lack of you is to much
Come back to me
Save me
Love me
Thursday, June 3, 2010
June 4th 2010
Oddly enough, I don't have anything really to post. Crazy because I'm normally very talkative. It's rare that I can't find a topic to hold my interest. I thought that instead I would post some poems, but, I have no new ones, another oddity for me. I guess with life taking its turns, my mind is finally blank. Empty you could say. I can't seem to make a simple rhyme. Yet at the same time, a million things come to mind.
Wishes and dreams that are unfulfilled. In reality though, isn't that the case with most of us. As a child we dream of the life we will have. The way our house will look, the car we will drive. Should I say that is how my childhood was. Playing "mash" to find my future husband, house and amount of kids. Never could I have dreamed this life. It's not perfect, but I have a home(kinda), we have food, electric, and TV. The biggest thing we have though is LOVE. What more does someone ever really need? The world can't give you the love that a family has. We don't have new vehicles, and well the house we rent is older than David and my ages added together, or so we have been told. The kids don't wear brand name clothes, unless they are given to them. We have a dinner every night, and we all have at least(well teh kids have to many)a pair of shoes. What could I really complain about? Not a thing.
Thanks for sticking with me and reading these posts. They aren't much, but I always say that if I have touched or helped one person with something I write then I have done a good job.
Wishing everyone a very blessed and restful night!!!
Wishes and dreams that are unfulfilled. In reality though, isn't that the case with most of us. As a child we dream of the life we will have. The way our house will look, the car we will drive. Should I say that is how my childhood was. Playing "mash" to find my future husband, house and amount of kids. Never could I have dreamed this life. It's not perfect, but I have a home(kinda), we have food, electric, and TV. The biggest thing we have though is LOVE. What more does someone ever really need? The world can't give you the love that a family has. We don't have new vehicles, and well the house we rent is older than David and my ages added together, or so we have been told. The kids don't wear brand name clothes, unless they are given to them. We have a dinner every night, and we all have at least(well teh kids have to many)a pair of shoes. What could I really complain about? Not a thing.
Thanks for sticking with me and reading these posts. They aren't much, but I always say that if I have touched or helped one person with something I write then I have done a good job.
Wishing everyone a very blessed and restful night!!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
June 2nd, 2010
Today seemed to start as a typical day. The kids were up and ready for school, David was ready for work, with his lunch. Tabitha and Nicholas were outside waiting for the bus along with MaKaliah, although her bus runs later. Watching them get on that bus changed the whole day for me. Watching them climb the bus steps, although I had watched them many mornings before, was hard for me this morning.
With each step they took seemed like a mile farther away they went. Like they forgot me with each step. Then it hit me. I am far from the best mom. I mean I give them everything they need. A home, food, clothes, and a basic life. Don't they deserve more though. Don't they deserve to have SOME of their wants met? Don't they deserve a new outfit more than once a year. Don't they deserve at least one costly pair shoes. Don't they deserve so much more. They have nothing to really play with outside. No pool, no swing, no sandbox, no nothing. They live a life like I did as a child, only difference, I had a swing set, we were able to go to the lake swimming, I had a bike, and plenty of room to play.
I know all mom's wish they could give their kids more then that do. I'm sure my mom wanted us to have more, and the moms before her. If I could have all wishes granted, nothing would ever worry me about what they have and don't have. I wouldn't worry about them going to school and coming home safe. It's the world we live in.
This is probably a post that will make many mad at me, however, if I was worried about making someone mad, I SURE wouldn't have started this whole blog. What happened to the world where neighbors helped each other. Instead of calling the cops because you get mad at someone, why not sit down and talk things out. Instead of calling social services, why not offer to help the parents. NOW, that statement is NOT meant in a way that you shouldn't call on a child being beaten on. I mean instead of calling and say things like "the kids have not food at night", why not fix a little extra and take that child a meal. Facts about it is, if the child is not getting a meal, then the rest of the family isn't either.
As for government, wow, that is a utterly un-fixable topic. For instance, if your going to waste tax payers money paying unemployment, why not make it tougher to keep it after a set time. Why not make the ones who are receiving unemployment benefits, prove they are trying to get a job. I mean anyone can say "yes I called such and such place about a job", or "I put in application". Anyone can say that, but make them prove it. Start calling these places that they put down and make them fax a paper saying that the person did actually try.
Then we have parents that feel they don't need to help support their children after a divorce. This goes for moms and dads alike. As things stand here in Kentucky, if you fall behind so far they give you so many days to get caught up if your behind. After that you go to jail for so long, then another time period, then more jail time. Apparently that isn't effective. There needs to be a better way of making things balance out. It's costing tax payers money for those people to go to jail and end up in and out every 30 days or so. Not only does it make it harder on those who do pay, but it's also hard on the parents that the support is owed to. The kids have to do without things they need in some cases. Yet, the child support offices only do the bare requirements on the cases.
Why don't we just go back to the way things use to be. Where people wanted to work, wanted to talk, wanted to live! The way the world is getting, no one wants to offer so much as kind word. Kids are more into drugs and alcohol then they were when parents had time to be involved. Back when people could afford to be happier, back when people wanted to help one another.
I suppose that I live in a fantasy land. A place where people loved to be around other people.
With each step they took seemed like a mile farther away they went. Like they forgot me with each step. Then it hit me. I am far from the best mom. I mean I give them everything they need. A home, food, clothes, and a basic life. Don't they deserve more though. Don't they deserve to have SOME of their wants met? Don't they deserve a new outfit more than once a year. Don't they deserve at least one costly pair shoes. Don't they deserve so much more. They have nothing to really play with outside. No pool, no swing, no sandbox, no nothing. They live a life like I did as a child, only difference, I had a swing set, we were able to go to the lake swimming, I had a bike, and plenty of room to play.
I know all mom's wish they could give their kids more then that do. I'm sure my mom wanted us to have more, and the moms before her. If I could have all wishes granted, nothing would ever worry me about what they have and don't have. I wouldn't worry about them going to school and coming home safe. It's the world we live in.
This is probably a post that will make many mad at me, however, if I was worried about making someone mad, I SURE wouldn't have started this whole blog. What happened to the world where neighbors helped each other. Instead of calling the cops because you get mad at someone, why not sit down and talk things out. Instead of calling social services, why not offer to help the parents. NOW, that statement is NOT meant in a way that you shouldn't call on a child being beaten on. I mean instead of calling and say things like "the kids have not food at night", why not fix a little extra and take that child a meal. Facts about it is, if the child is not getting a meal, then the rest of the family isn't either.
As for government, wow, that is a utterly un-fixable topic. For instance, if your going to waste tax payers money paying unemployment, why not make it tougher to keep it after a set time. Why not make the ones who are receiving unemployment benefits, prove they are trying to get a job. I mean anyone can say "yes I called such and such place about a job", or "I put in application". Anyone can say that, but make them prove it. Start calling these places that they put down and make them fax a paper saying that the person did actually try.
Then we have parents that feel they don't need to help support their children after a divorce. This goes for moms and dads alike. As things stand here in Kentucky, if you fall behind so far they give you so many days to get caught up if your behind. After that you go to jail for so long, then another time period, then more jail time. Apparently that isn't effective. There needs to be a better way of making things balance out. It's costing tax payers money for those people to go to jail and end up in and out every 30 days or so. Not only does it make it harder on those who do pay, but it's also hard on the parents that the support is owed to. The kids have to do without things they need in some cases. Yet, the child support offices only do the bare requirements on the cases.
Why don't we just go back to the way things use to be. Where people wanted to work, wanted to talk, wanted to live! The way the world is getting, no one wants to offer so much as kind word. Kids are more into drugs and alcohol then they were when parents had time to be involved. Back when people could afford to be happier, back when people wanted to help one another.
I suppose that I live in a fantasy land. A place where people loved to be around other people.
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